When you stand, don’t feel the need to suck in your stomach. That pouch is healthy, fed and thriving. It never left, as much as people told you it would, and it is still beautiful. Embrace the freckles! There are some on your face that won’t budge. That large one on your nose is still your favourite.
You are intelligent. You are. But I promise you that eventually, you’ll realise intelligence doesn’t have to be the basis of your existence. You don’t need it to prove to others anything. Also, don’t get too comfortable with maths and science as your career. One day, it’ll turn itself on its head, and your love for books will come into full force. On that note, keep reading. The stares you get from the playground are worth it. Carry, love, and cherish those books you keep to yourself all the time. There will come the day you fall into writing. Keep that pen in your hand. Those little Harry Potter stories you write will lead you to more.
Wear the purple Doc Martins. No, they do not go with anything. At all. Really, at all. But they will continue to be an article of clothing you feel most confident with. All you will own are boots. And you will never truly walk properly in them, I’m sorry to say. You will still walk flat-footed. Boys' clothing is not restricted. You can wear those t-shirts if you feel like it, clothing is not gendered. Boy’s clothes will be the least of your worries eventually. You’ll be more concerned over other things like this.
Feel your emotions. They are very strong for such a small child, but they are valid. I won’t tell you the word they will call it eventually, but when you come to find it out, it doesn’t have to take over you. It will be okay. As it always is.
Finally, continue to love those people in your life with as much love in your heart as you do. Hug Poppa, and Grandma, and Mum, and Dad, and Lilly. Do not feel embarrassed to hug. To love them. You are loved, and so love them in return. They will always have you, even if they don’t seem to be around.
With love,
Future Sarah x
